How would this make you feel?


Woke up in despair.

Wondering if

He’d even cared.

Looked at my phone.

In hopes he’d reached out.

Not a word nor vibration

Complete and utter silence

I drift away into a deeper slumber

Hoping to sleep my day away

With a silenced phone

And

Tattered heart.

He’d reached out.

Before I awoke.

Only

It wasn’t love,

He’d wanted to express.

But a crap attempt.

To twist his guilt on me.

And so the story goes like this…

He wasted my time

My love and my bliss.

Built me up just to tear me down

Classic tactic

Of someone who needs control.

Ignored me plenty

And

Often dropped off

BUT

When his behavior was reciprocated,

His true colors came out.

©Rarenwise 2021

15 thoughts on “How would this make you feel?

  1. Yernasia Quorelios says:

    💜 Would “make [Me] feel” like Setting Boundaries and Aserting Boundaries; like asking them about relationships with Family and sending them to their Virtual Rooms to THINK!!! about it until I Get An Answer that Makes Sense To Me…it doesn’t ALWAYS!!! Work; which is I Have Fewer Friends, No Partner and Less Stress than Ever, Happily Single and Estranged from Family…it’s Crystal Clear Clarity that I AM Anti-Social; just don’t like Being around People very much…there is Too Much Energetic Incompatibility; no Active Listening, just Defend, Justify and Attack then CRY!!! while I AM Still Talking, Go Figure

    …💛💚💙…

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    • 🧝‍♀️Rarenwise🧝‍♀️ says:

      That exactly what he did to me. I took the time gave the energy to be his haven. Listen to all his stuff but when it came to mine he flipped his shit and used a manipulator tactic on me and tried twisting it around. Long story short. He’s an addict. Who claimed he was recovering. Only, he’s replaced his addictions for a gambling one instead. Yet again putting his addictions before anyone else. Including his children.

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      • Yernasia Quorelios says:

        💜 As a Red Wine “Addict” I Totally Understand “Addicts” SupaSoulSis; in My Experience The Worst “Addicts” ARE Control Freak “Addicts” especially those In Denial about Their Own Substance “Addictions”…it’s a Very Tricky One; it involves Self Mirrors (Very Scary) and a ChildLike Remembrance, Realisation of Experience…for example I Was Beaten in The Name of Discipline by Primary CareGivers; then, when Big Enough, I Beat Them in Revenge…didn’t make Me Feel Good; yet sitting in solitude, writing with No Fleas in My Ear while drinking Red Wine makes Me Feel Really Good while I AM Judged by Others for Being an Abject, Alcoholic “Addict” Making Me Laugh as They Pretend To Be Very Happy with Their Sober 3DLives…it’s NEVER!!! The Substance; it’s ALWAYS!!! The Mood

        …💛💚💙…

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      • Yernasia Quorelios says:

        💜 …P.S. That’s One of Many Reasons that SHE!!! Divorced Me; because Kids Love a Happy Drunk and HATE a Strict Parent because Happy Drunks ARE FUN!!!

        …💛💚💙…

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      • 🧝‍♀️Rarenwise🧝‍♀️ says:

        The difference lays within whether your a functional drinker or a dis functional one. Kids don’t love the addict who hurts mom. Kids don’t love addicts that create instability in their lives. Being a fun parent? Anyone can be a fun parent. Its FUN. Good memories… that’s FUN. Stable lives. Have parents show up for them. That’s the real deal. Can’t show up to your kids first big days hungover ,belligerent and embarrassing.

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      • Yernasia Quorelios says:

        💜 I Hear YOU!!! SupaSouBro with YOUR!!! Parentally Conditioned Words; personally, I THINK!!! The “Kids” would just Laugh Out Loud…the Reason why I Have Returned to The Purity of My ChildLike State and Ignore ‘Oh So Serious Grown Ups’ is because I AM Still Here In Spite of My Parents and Other Controlling Authority

        …💛💚💙…

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      • Yernasia Quorelios says:

        💜 I Play Rugby SupaSouBro; when Provoked and Retaliated Against The Retaliated is Punished and Provocative Person Gets Away With It…is that NOT!!! Very, Very, Very Interesting; in The Context of a Relationship, Donch’ya THINK!!! 🤔 ?

        …💛💚💙…

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      • Yernasia Quorelios says:

        💜 Yup plenty of “guilt” SupaSouBro; anyone who Denies “guilt” is Lying and Denying EveryOne, don’t trust Those Deniers

        …💛💚💙…

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      • 🧝‍♀️Rarenwise🧝‍♀️ says:

        That doesn’t sound like a healthy relationship. If two individuals love each other and have true intent for one another than they are BOTH dedicated to each other. Not no “BACK UP PLANS” There’s no getting sad and stepping out. That’s child’s play. If that’s what he chooses to do.. then that’s on him. My hands are clean and I can very well leave him to the hands of god. God sees her tears. He sees the turmoil he inflicts and that shall be his cross to bear. If he’s out there thinking about third party’s and bringing other woman into it than ONCE again he’s putting ANOTHER woman in front of her. 23 years of that bullshit just ain’t my cup of tea.

        If he cares he’ll show it. Prove it even. Actions.

        If he doesn’t care, his actions will prove it.

        Guess you just gonna keep flexin eh Eric?

        Accountability.

        Look it up.

        Grow a pair and act like a man or stay like that.

        But if this is how you want it to be…. u can hit me up when your grown. We’ll see where I’m at by then
        😎✌️

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      • Yernasia Quorelios says:

        💜 Goddess (Mother Nature) Agrees; it’s Crystal Clear Clarity that there is No Provocation to Hit AnyOne…for Me it was Childhood Physical Abuse; then I Took My Revenge, it wasn’t satisfying

        …💛💚💙…

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      • 🧝‍♀️Rarenwise🧝‍♀️ says:

        Yep! It generally isn’t ever worth it to do someone dirty just because your mad 🤷🏼‍♀️

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