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Selfish


I remember when

I needed to prioritize…

The kids.

My responsibilities.

Cleaning.

Working.

Praying.

Resting.

Rather than support…

Understanding…

Compassion.

…his help…

He flipped his shit.

Suddenly

Spending time

With my children

Equated to me

Hooking up

With some

Non existent individual.

Or

JUST not wanting to be around him.

The things he said….

The control he instilled.

For, only HIS needs

We’re allowed to be fulfilled.

🔷

All the while.

He was behind the scenes.

Doing all these things

He’d scrutinized on me.

Alas his insecurities

Revealing his deceit.

For, without substantial proof

One doesn’t

Blame another for cheating…

Unless they themselves…

Are doing.

🔷

He came on a whim.

No logic nor plan.

Didn’t include her in any planning

Simply

Showed up and demanded.

Instantly hateful

Even belittled her

For not shifting her life

Quickly enough for him.

🔷

Threw himself on her plate

With no concern for her weights.

🔷

He wanted to be

The only thing

Mounted on that plate

Taking presidency over any other weight.

🔷

If I didn’t comply

I was faced with tantrums.

Told he’d cheat

If I didn’t respect.

His rules.

🔶

Told I was crazy

Told his other woman I was a psychopath.

Called me abusive.

🔶

Called ugly names

For not enabling.

He attempted to make her feel

Not good enough for him.

Wanted me to feel

As though I had to

Prove my self worth to him.

🔷

Two weeks have gone by

Since that dreadful night

All these years.

He professed “undying love“

Yet!

In a heartbeat

Tried taking her life.

🔷

The question remains

After all of these words…

Where’s his concern?

Where’s his heart?

🔷

Not once has he checked up.

Worried.

Felt bad.

Worked anything out.

Why?

Because all this “love”

Was merely a lie.

He used AND misused her.

What a guy.

🔷

For if he truly cared….

She would hear from him.

🔷

That’s proof in itself

If you care, you’ll call.

If your a heartless, sadistic human?

You FALL off.

🔷

So what’s the stall?

🔷

Now he tells 

His jaded sob story

To other woman 

Doing the same thing

He did to me.

Manipulate

Use

Guilt trip

Bemuse

🔷

SELFISH

he was indeed.

Her life slowly melding

Back to where it’s meant to be.

Time with her kids

Spotlessly clean home again.

Normal meals

No more control.

Over how, what and when.

She eats.

Cleans.

Spends time.

Sleeps.

Drinks tea.

Speaks.

Works.

Self care

And

Prays

🔷

Just a woman

Resurfacing

From the debris

And damage

Of a

Mentally unstable

And

Broken man.

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